Monday, August 24, 2009

My nerves......

Well, where does one start at times. Needless to say its been hectic lately and I am on the verge of guzzeling all the cough syrup, cooking wine, after shave and sucking on the alcohol swabs that come with our dry cow treating tubes..in other words - my nerves are S-H-O-T.... I'm tired, I stink, I have not time for baking, barely time for cooking and my boys are starting to show signs of fungus growth on parts of their little smelly bodys, cuz really I dont remember the last time I bathed them.... stop shaking your finger at me or a I may bite it off....

Palmer is doing well, he has little pain and that is a prayer answered. We are going to be going back to the dr sometime soon to have his skin graft looked at, but not sure what day that will be.
Now to the serious stuff......
On my blog I have always tried to remain at least upbeat and made an attempt at being funny, but right now I have some serious things that I need to ask of you all. With Palmers injury and many other things our income has went into the toilet. We dont have a savings, because in farming its always being used and replentished and used...right now, there is no way to replenish it. I have not been able to work this last week and for at least 3 more because its harvest time - I do ALL the milking and a major part of the barn chores because the MilkMan is so busy trying to keep the machinery going and helping me with the sick or newly fresh cattle. Not to mention fixing all the things that break, combineing Barley, Oats and cutting our hay. We have at least 3000 bales of alfalfa hay that needs to be gotten off of the field today, becaues rain is coming tommorow, we also have about 1200 bales of straw to get up for the same reason.....

So I come to you with a request for prayers for our family - to pray for our needs to be met, as they always are...but the Lord hears all our prayers and I am hoping that I can find some strength that is God given, cuz I am wearing out fast. I know I am not a spring chicken anymore,but I am tiring way faster than I should be. In my heart I know its because I worry about money - not for the love of it but only for our needs to be met. I know that they will be because God has promised those who believe that they shall be sustained.... I dont doubt that for a second, I guess what I am asking for is for you all to stand with me in prayer for my family. That you would pray for a windfall of some sort for us, that would not require death, further dismemberment or anything illegal... Its one of those times when EVERYTHING is needed.... kids need socks and underwear - baby needs diapers, I need lyposuction and a face lift... :) But, really its the bills needing to be paid that gets me the most. I dont like not having enough to pay bills -let alone buy the things that are 'needed'... Our income is based on so many things and we never make more than $15-18000 on a good year.. well this year has been worse than bad...LOL I dont like to cry on anyones shoulders cuz I know there are far worse off folks then me. I have healthy kids, a loving husband and my faith.... as a christian we are expected to lean on each other for support so I guess that is what I am asking for - support, not sympathy... dont feel sorry for me, just try to understand where I am coming from . SO - as I said before I would appreciate any prayers this way. You guys are great and I love each of you with all my heart. Thank you for praying for Palmer, I truely believe your prayers are the biggest reason for his steady increase of strength and decrease of pain.

I gotta go - hay is waiting and cows are calling. We are probably going to have a new calf before this evening. I am taking the camera with me for close ups... later dudes.


p.s. If you know anyone who has an extra $15,000 laying around... I know RIGHT where it can be put.... :) lyposuction is expensive...

p.p. s anyone want to come help me with canning, crocking and freezing my garden... I have a room for you to sleep and all the work you want..... thanks..... over and out...

25 comments:

Peggy said...

I am sending up prayers and sending good thoughts and love your way. I wish I could do more as I know first hand how much hard work and little money is in dairy farming. God will hear all the prayers and I just know he has many blessings in store for you.

Vanessa said...

Praying for you and wishing I lived close enough to help with your garden.

Karen Deborah said...

OMG I would love to come. Please God.
Get some cod liver oil and take a walloping dose. It will perk you up and no soda, none nada zip....get rid of it. you will feel better. If the kids need a bath fill up their little pool or turn Lispy loose with the hose.

Yes honey,of course we will pray. Big time. You are not alone in that boat I am right there with you in that I am still not working. 2 months without pay is not a good thing.

Relax, breathe and work. God is able and you are too.

you need a good spring tonic.

Andi said...

Of course we'll pray for you! Sounds like you need someone to make you PWs coffee cake recipe she posted today. You don't have time, and I live too far away to make it for you...But I totally would!

Hey! my word verification is spest, as in "spest you let God handle your problems today!"

LDF said...

Absolutely you and your family are in my prayers! I sure wish i was close enough to come give you a practical hand too. Hugz!

More than Survival said...

Heavenly Father... Wrap your arms around her right now!!! Fill her with your strength, your peace, your power, your PROVISION!!!! Thank you in advance for meeting ALL of their needs...in your amazing ways!!!! In Jesus Name!!!

Chicken Herder from Westville said...

Heidi,
Dear lady I pray with you for something good to happen.
Where do you live? I live in the Midwest too. Northern Indiana. Maybe I am near and I can help you can?

Nancy

Ye Merrie Quilter said...

I wish I lived closer and could come help. My middle kid has said she wants to be a farmer and she's a happy helper. I'd be glad to lend a hand and a back, too, but we're a couple thousand miles away. God bless you and your family, and of course, prayers are offered for you all.

Mrs Mom said...

Baby sis, if I could be there I would in a flash. But know that we are praying for you, Palmer, and the entire crew up there.

When you get a chance, be sure to hit the main horse blog (OhHorseFeathers.blogspot.com) Last night we had a night mare here- someone tried to steal my horse. And he is hurt- badly.

Between everything that has gone on in our respective corners of the world this year Heidi, its a wonder we BOTH aren't hittin the sauce.

Prayin for ya baby. Love you more than you know.

Dawn said...

My family lifts you up in prayer too. I love to read your posts and can't believe how well I feel I know your family although we live far apart. Have a restful night tonight.

prairierunner said...

I'll put you on my prayer list......been there!

Donna said...

Dairying is a hard way to make a living at best. If you're milking twice a day and keeping the home fires burning as well, you are surely at your wit's end.

I am saying a prayer for all of you.

Susan said...

There is a paryer on it's way!!!

Susan

Greenmare said...

oh you got it honey. you keep your chin up okay? praying praying praying for all of you.

Vickie said...

Sweetie, my prayers are with you and your family. The Lord knows what you need before you ask. Trust in Him. He gives us our daily bread and goes with us through the valley. Look up and don't give up! Blessings -

Heide said...

We're all in your corner! I wish I was closer to help out with the farming, cooking, baby holding, etc. so you and the Milkman could have a quiet dinner and maybe take a walk, etc. You spend so much time taking care of everyone else and you really, really need and deserve time together as well.

Country Boy said...

Hello Heidi my wife and I stumbled across your blog while trying to set up one of our own. We would like to help you out and send you some stuff for the kids. Is it possible to get your email address or can you see ours? If so contact us!

Faithful said...

Isn't it amazing how God steps in and helps in time of need..Glad to hear Palmer is healing so well and the Lord has helped with his pain. I do know what you are feeling..the desparation when the money doesn't go far enough, I'm having the same fears..... but know that you all are strong in His Light! I send my prayers for God to bless you and keep you.

COFFEE MAN said...

hang in there lil sis , You know if I could be there I would . Its a hard time no doubt , and telling you its gonna get better doesnt help much whhen your neck deep I know . However there IS a light at the end of the tunnel and I promis sis it isnt a train.

and as for the liposuction , not sure 15 would cover it . hmmmmmm halfta think on that one.

~ Sara ~ said...

While I can't totally relate, I can to a point and am sending prayers.

Dairying has never been easy, this past year has been the worst ever. And if that wasn't enough we have to deal with everyday nastiness, lenders who could care less, and so forth and so on. If I'm not crying I'm a nervous wreck...

God will always see us through, I know that. It's just the getting there with my sanity I'm concerned about. :)

Lisa said...

Harry and I are thinking of your family.

Susan said...

The Trout and I are praying for your wonderful family. Keep your faith. Sending much love. Susan

Lisa said...

I am praying for you right now and will continue!

The Lord will provide for your family. He knows all that you are going through and is in control, even when it seems that He's not. I pray that you will have the peace that passes all understanding in this trial and strength.

Jennifer said...

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You're being prayed for... Just found this blog today.

Jody Blue said...

~this to shall pass~ but in the mean time, I'm prayin' for you & yours