My nerves......

Well, where does one start at times. Needless to say its been hectic lately and I am on the verge of guzzeling all the cough syrup, cooking wine, after shave and sucking on the alcohol swabs that come with our dry cow treating tubes..in other words - my nerves are S-H-O-T.... I'm tired, I stink, I have not time for baking, barely time for cooking and my boys are starting to show signs of fungus growth on parts of their little smelly bodys, cuz really I dont remember the last time I bathed them.... stop shaking your finger at me or a I may bite it off....

Palmer is doing well, he has little pain and that is a prayer answered. We are going to be going back to the dr sometime soon to have his skin graft looked at, but not sure what day that will be.
Now to the serious stuff......
On my blog I have always tried to remain at least upbeat and made an attempt at being funny, but right now I have some serious things that I need to ask of you all. With Palmers injury and many other things our income has went into the toilet. We dont have a savings, because in farming its always being used and replentished and used...right now, there is no way to replenish it. I have not been able to work this last week and for at least 3 more because its harvest time - I do ALL the milking and a major part of the barn chores because the MilkMan is so busy trying to keep the machinery going and helping me with the sick or newly fresh cattle. Not to mention fixing all the things that break, combineing Barley, Oats and cutting our hay. We have at least 3000 bales of alfalfa hay that needs to be gotten off of the field today, becaues rain is coming tommorow, we also have about 1200 bales of straw to get up for the same reason.....

So I come to you with a request for prayers for our family - to pray for our needs to be met, as they always are...but the Lord hears all our prayers and I am hoping that I can find some strength that is God given, cuz I am wearing out fast. I know I am not a spring chicken anymore,but I am tiring way faster than I should be. In my heart I know its because I worry about money - not for the love of it but only for our needs to be met. I know that they will be because God has promised those who believe that they shall be sustained.... I dont doubt that for a second, I guess what I am asking for is for you all to stand with me in prayer for my family. That you would pray for a windfall of some sort for us, that would not require death, further dismemberment or anything illegal... Its one of those times when EVERYTHING is needed.... kids need socks and underwear - baby needs diapers, I need lyposuction and a face lift... :) But, really its the bills needing to be paid that gets me the most. I dont like not having enough to pay bills -let alone buy the things that are 'needed'... Our income is based on so many things and we never make more than $15-18000 on a good year.. well this year has been worse than bad...LOL I dont like to cry on anyones shoulders cuz I know there are far worse off folks then me. I have healthy kids, a loving husband and my faith.... as a christian we are expected to lean on each other for support so I guess that is what I am asking for - support, not sympathy... dont feel sorry for me, just try to understand where I am coming from . SO - as I said before I would appreciate any prayers this way. You guys are great and I love each of you with all my heart. Thank you for praying for Palmer, I truely believe your prayers are the biggest reason for his steady increase of strength and decrease of pain.

I gotta go - hay is waiting and cows are calling. We are probably going to have a new calf before this evening. I am taking the camera with me for close ups... later dudes.


p.s. If you know anyone who has an extra $15,000 laying around... I know RIGHT where it can be put.... :) lyposuction is expensive...

p.p. s anyone want to come help me with canning, crocking and freezing my garden... I have a room for you to sleep and all the work you want..... thanks..... over and out...